Life!

I just wanted to express my feelings today about things that have been going on in Drew and I's life! And you'll have to understand that I am human and I make mistakes, but this one ended up stabbing me in the back like so many others. I won't go into details, but I just wanted to apologize to all those who were involved and maybe help someone out there that might being going through something similar or help prevent things like this from happening.

My first mistake in all this and everyone does it, or maybe it is just me, but I talked about someone behind their back, and I shouldn't have and I regret it, but I have learned a huge lesson from it. You never know what the future might bring, who might be in your life at certain times, and most importantly who you might hurt, embarrass, or offend. I have learned and I am still learning to talk to the person directly if you have any kind of problem with them. Good or Bad! It is always better that way!

Second I learned that I need to trust more easily. In my life I have had many people very important to me betray my trust and I have betrayed others trust. And I am sorry if I have and I hope all can forgive me. But I have learned that it is so much easier to trust someone then get angry, jealous, or offended. One person that I should trust the most is my husband, and I am trying harder and harder everyday! But the most important is to trust in the Lord, I look at it this way, if we can learn to trust our neighbors and ourselves, it will be easier to trust in the Lord.

And that brings me to my last lesson, and I am sorry if this gets to religious but I need to say it. If you know me I am a person that likes to have control over almost every situation I am in. I think that is why not getting pregnant has been so hard on me. I will expand on that later. But if I rely and trust in the Lord I know that life is more enjoyable, peaceful, and happy! Also life will run a lot smoother, even if times are hard, the Lord is there to guide and direct you! I know that if we pray daily and throughout the day we will be guided, if we read our scriptures it will be easier for us to understand the Lord and why we are here. I also know that if we attend the Temple often we will have better relationship with our Lord and Savior and also with those we love. I see the miracles of attending the Temple every time I go. And last but not least I know that if we follow the Prophets council our lives will be lead in the way they need to be. I hope we can all take something from this, and again I apologize from the bottom of my heart to those I have offended and hurt. I hope our friendships can stay the same and that we can learn from this and move on.


OK, So Drew and I have been trying to get pregnant for that last year! You'll have to understand that I have been baby hungry since I was 12. I have always been a worrier and when it comes to getting pregnant I think I worry the most. I have been tested and we are planning on doing some other tests. We have tried numerous things that we can afford) to help us out but nothing seems to work. And it kills me inside every time we test and it is negative. But if you know me I hide my feelings well, most of the time. Every time I talk to anyone about it they don't think its that big of a deal or they don't seem to care. I know we have only been trying for a year, but it has felt like a life time.

But, to let you know, I have learned numerous lessons from all of this. Patience being the big one! I am not a patient person, just ask my husband, but I have learned that the Lord has a big hand in this and he will bless us when he see's we are ready and prepared, even if we are not ready, I mean who really is ready? Also, this whole blogging thing has opened my eye's. I have found a number of blogs with stories so much bigger of deal then mine. Whenever I think about our situation, I remember that some have it a lot harder then we do. I am so grateful for all the Great examples I have to help me to be more humble and patient! I am also grateful for our neighbors who have a baby and for letting us be a part of her life! It has been like therapy for me to watch her and see her grow. I know that the Lord will bless us in one way or another when the time is right for us! I hope this post can help someone out and I am so grateful for a husband who supports me and is there for me and for this time that we have together to learn. I am so grateful for my membership in the church to help guide and direct me in my life. I hope everyone is doing well and keep on truckin!